Merry Christmas/Happy Holidays

  It's 3:58 am and I had to get up to take a pain pill...ugh. I know better than to eat before bed but I was just so damn hungry, I couldn't help it and now I am paying for it. Wanted to wish all my friends and family a very Merry Christmas, I hope you all have safe travels and the best Christmas ever! Since I am up for a few, I thought I'd do a quick post seeing that it's officially my 44th birthday today and I have a words of wisdom/advice to share with the younger ones out there. Some amusing, some serious, but still words to live by...

Memories (an excerpt from the book that crashed and burned with my hard drive)

"..There are so many memories that I have yet to remember. It's been almost forty years and I figured something would have surfaced by now. Why can't I remember? Will I ever be able to remember? Maybe things are better off where they are now, maybe it's better they stay hidden. Memories locked away. Then there are the nightmares, these being a whole other story. There are a few things I do remember with the help of my dreams... A red headed man, a hallway going upstairs to a room...the door leading to the hallway looked like the rest of the wall so people didn't know it was there unless they saw it open.  I see a camera often, no idea why. He is in my dreams a lot, normally chasing me until I wake up in tears. I remember things here and there, things my grandparents said I was too young to remember. There was no way I could know these things, but I do. And honestly, I want to remember, so that maybe, just maybe, I can move on...maybe.